
I came across a great article today in the New York Times about homesickness. You can find it here. (I grew up in New York and wherever I live I still consider it the only paper worth reading.) The article discusses how common it was for early settlers of America to talk about being homesick, also known as suffering from nostalgia. The author then brings us up to date:
'Today, explicit discussions of homesickness are rare, for the emotion is typically regarded as an embarrassing impediment to individual progress and prosperity. This silence makes mobility appear deceptively easy.'
Of course, Skype and Facebook and long distance calling cards make keeping in touch easier. And in truth, I don't use them as often as I should. But no amount of emails or even video chats make up for being gone, for missing out on all the little things that don't seem important enough to talk about long distance but that tie people together when they are a daily part of each others lives.
I think of Americans, myself included, as highly independant people. I have traveled alone, and wherever I go people ask why. Why would you want to travel by yourself. Why would you want to move to another country, alone. I used to think this question was insulting. I came because I wanted to, I don't need a reason, and besides, it's none of your business. But actually, they're being nice. They're showing interest. Being nosy is part of being human. It's the first step to making a new friend.
I've been lucky. I've travelled to great places like Spain and Bali with great friends. And I came to China with just one friend and have made many more. But I'm still homesick, and I'm homesick for two towns - the one I was born in, New York, and the one I chose to live in for ten years, Miami.
Maybe when I leave Beijing I'll be homesick for three cities, but I think it's been worth it. I feel closer to all my relatives and forbears that have left their home countries and chosen their own lives somewhere else. I feel like I've had three lives, and I love them all.